Charlotte Mabel

Our daughter’s name is Charlotte Mabel. She is an early riser. At about 5am my husband can expect to get a kick in the back from her. I can feel her kicking inside me like she is saying “get up, get up”.

She loves bananas and strawberries. Just the thought of them makes her wriggle about.

Like her Mum, she doesn’t like the cold. When her belly home is wrapped up, she moves about happy, but when belly home is cold she will quieten down and curl up deep inside.

When I eat an iceblock, it makes her jump and I swear there is a giggle.

She hates her photo being taken. She will turn her back and move away. Once she even ‘mooned’ the doctor – very unlady like!

 

 

She has learnt to play ‘knock, knock’. I tap twice on my belly and she gives a big – well I don’t know what body part she uses but I feel the ‘knock, knock’ back. Sometimes she plays with Daddy, but she is still a little shy.

She doesn’t like it when I raise my voice. She will sit quiet and wait until I stop, then slowly give me little soft kicks and punches like she is saying “it’s OK”.

Our daughter could not stay with us for too long, just 29 weeks and 2 days. She had learnt what she needed for this life – what it is to be so completely and totally loved. She had already taught us her life lessons – how much my husband and I love each other, what great parents we make and the certainty that we can survive through even the most tragic times.

 

 

Until her very last moment inside me Charlotte was surrounded by love.

When she was born, she had such a look of determination on her face. Wherever she is now, they better look out, because here is a spirit that is a force to be reckoned with.

Charlotte means ‘free’ and Mabel means ‘my beloved’. I know she still sees us. I hope we make her proud. She has made us so proud to be parents of such a feisty, beautiful, funny, powerful, loving, smart, joyful girl.

19 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jenna Belle
    Dec 21, 2011 @ 00:47:50

    This is lovely….it brought tears to my eyes.

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  2. gettingitsorted
    Dec 21, 2011 @ 01:24:27

    Thank you Jenna xo

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  3. plainoldunromantic
    Jan 01, 2012 @ 22:51:16

    Charlotte was so beautiful. I love the way you portrayed her in utero- “She has learnt to play “knock knock”- so sweet.

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  4. Meshi
    Jan 11, 2012 @ 11:51:25

    She looks so lovely yep had a few tears there,what you have said is so so true.

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  5. Malou Prestado
    Jan 18, 2012 @ 21:20:15

    I can feel your pain as it is not easy to lose a child that you carried in your womb and loved from the first moment that you know she was inside you. I’m sure that she’s watching over you and your husband. I hope and pray that in time you will get over the pain somehow and be blessed again by a little one that will be with you. Take care.

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  6. EB
    Jan 22, 2012 @ 00:24:53

    This is beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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  7. Lori
    Jan 22, 2012 @ 04:04:35

    This was beautiful.

    I adore how you capture her personality. It’s so true…just because we don’t get to parent them once they are born, whether still or live, that doesn’t mean we aren’t their parents and we didn’t know anything about them!
    Matthew loved chocolate milkshakes.
    And music.
    And red meat, ha ha!
    He was very scheduled and structured.
    And feisty.

    I love that I got to have that.
    So happy that you and your husband got to share that with your sweet little Charlotte.

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  8. Mr. Thompson and Me
    Jan 23, 2012 @ 05:37:42

    That was one of the most beautiful posts I’ve read. Stopped by from ICLW and was deeply touched. Your strength shines through and you can bet she is proud of her mom.

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  9. Donor Diva
    Jan 29, 2012 @ 02:43:36

    This post brought tears to my eyes and is so sweet. It is amazing how little ones can share so much of themselves when they are still in your belly. She is always with you.

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  10. Amy
    Feb 29, 2012 @ 01:31:15

    Thank you for sharing your story. I just sat and read your blog. I lost my baby boy at 32 weeks. Your Charlotte is so beautiful and precious.

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    • Lyndell
      Feb 29, 2012 @ 02:32:35

      Thank you Amy. It breaks my heart every time I hear that someone else has been through this too. I hate thinking about someone being in the same pain because I know just how awful and unfair it is.I’m sorry you lost your beautiful and precious boy too. xo

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  12. @EndoJourney
    Apr 21, 2012 @ 23:05:28

    What an incredibly beautiful homage to your baby girl. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your angel. (From ICLW #20)

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  13. JB
    Apr 24, 2012 @ 12:18:43

    Found you from ICLW (#52). What a beautiful post and tribute to your daughter. Thinking of you.

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  14. katery
    Apr 26, 2012 @ 18:17:08

    she’s beautiful, thank-you so much for sharing and i’m so sorry to hear you lost her.
    iclw

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  15. Kathy
    Apr 26, 2012 @ 23:45:35

    I am here via ICLW (#7) and after reading and commenting on one of your posts wanted to read more about you/your baby girl’s story. What a gorgeous introduction to your Charlotte Mabel. I love the way you wrote this and captured your daughter’s spirit and what she means to you. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing what her first and middle name mean and that beautiful picture of your baby girl. May she rest in peace and you find comfort and healing in the days to come.

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  16. Jennifer
    Apr 27, 2012 @ 01:24:11

    Here from ICLW – I am so sorry for your loss. :(

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  17. Kristin
    Apr 28, 2012 @ 03:43:14

    I’m so sorry for your loss.

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